Day 2: Second Thoughts
It's day 2, and I am already having second thoughts about this whole thing.
"Maybe I could've come up with a better name, will people even know what 'deperfecting' means?"
"It looks too much like 'deprecating', will it confuse people?"
"What if I don't know what to write about?"
I remind myself that these questions are just regular perfectionist rumination. They are there because its trying to do what perfectionism's true purpose is - to give protection. Protecting me from feelings of inadequacy. Protecting me from being made fun of. Protecting me from the fear of not being good enough.
Usually, when I start asking myself these types of questions, I quit whatever I was doing. The paralysis of starting kicks in, and I push it off until I feel confident that everything is perfect. The name, the logo, the posting schedule.
But today, I remind myself that these questions are normal. They are part of who I am, and I should accept that my brain will ask them. And I will also remind myself that I don't need to let those questions dictate my actions. It might not be the perfect name, or the prettiest website, or the greatest post. But that doesnt matter. I am doing this for myself, and if I stay consistent in writing about these thoughts, I will be better at recognizing these questions and overcoming perfectionism.
- Alex